Depression

For some reason, I've been incredibly down this week...down on myself, down on my work, down on my life. I feel like I haven't done much or accomplished much with my 31 years on this planet...like I can and should be more.

Some of it has to do with the fact that I've let some people down this week and I usually spend the next month beating myself up over it. I think I'll cut that down 2 weeks. ;)

As I hear those thoughts in my mind, I remind myself that life is lived each day and by each day only.

It's my job to be grateful for a day when it arrives (even when it is at 6:30am...you all know I am NOT a morning person) and to do the best I can with the 24 hours I am given. There are lessons to be learned in each day, there are goals to continue moving towards and there are warm rays of Colorado sunshine to immerse myself in.

Those are the only things I need to do each and every day.

I was definitely attached to my car, my active lifestyle and my freelance work routine. All of that has gone out the window so to speak. I now ride the bus everywhere (which is incredibly uncomfortable when you have the severe whiplash I have), can barely walk 4 miles (I used to run that several times a week) and am a slave to the man. (te he).


But that is just today. Tomorrow could be different and it will be different. When I am healed and recovered, I will drive a new car, run as many races as I want and continue moving forward with my career.

Til I am recovered though, I'm going to concentrate on getting healthy and being well! That is my only goal for the month of August: get completely healed!!!!

Wish me well. I wish you the same!