A Rock and a Hard Place

Yes it's been awhile since I updated this blog and you dear reader. Well here's a quick recap: I finally found a new home, a new contract gig to pay for the new home and a new roommate. Sounds great right? Like many things it is in theory but the paper version is another story.


The home is lovely - downtown Boulder 2 bedroom condo that's reasonably quiet and has been well-maintained.


It's nice to live and commute via bus a majority of the time.


The real issue is the roommate. He's wonderful - and that's the problem. He's too wonderful and I seem to have fallen for him while he continues to date. In fact there's someone in our home right now.


I truly am in a difficult spot. He's great to be with and he's easy to live with. We get along and agree on many things and are great friends.


And if I had met him in any other setting I would've asked him out or found a way to make feelings a bit clearer. When I initially met him he said he wasn't really interested in a relationship right now so I kept my mouth shut. I thought if I brought up my attraction it wouldn't lead to anything...and I'd lose a potential roommate in the process along with a potentially great friend (which he has become).


Part of me still thinks I did the right thing but another part of me wishes I had avoided this whole uncomfortable situation.


But now I've signed a lease and it would be a challenge to get out of it. I have no idea what to do so I'll just be with this and let go of my emotional attachment...and I'll probably go on a few dates too.

My new home...

Yes I am going to move again I have decided. This time I'm leaving Denver behind. And I am embracing Boulder.


Although I didn't get the job offer in Boulder I decided it's time to go where my heart wants to be - Boulder. I want to be in a place where spirituality is the norm, biking & walking are standard modes of transportation and not the bus or Hummer SUVs, and where alternative practices are welcomed with open arms.


That place is Boulder and that place is me.


I think I knew it the first time I visited the city and my heart has wanted to move there for the last 3 years.


Natch my brain told me that was silly since I had just moved to Denver so I ignored my longings and made due in Denver. I found metaphysical shops to suit my needs with wonderfully kind & creative owners; I found local churchs I enjoyed visiting and I found some like-minded people to share my time with.


But not enough. I haven't been immersed in groups of people who embrace progressive self-development and actualization. I have frequently been at the head of the pack among people I know and I want to be surrounded with people who are light years ahead of me. People who can and will teach me to have more compassion, more love, more honesty with myself and with others.


I want to continue my growth and the place to do it is in Boulder.


Wish me luck!