Rollercoaster ride

What a week it has been already. I told you briefly about TX. We did email & he explained to me he's keeping in touch with people he met on that site. He said he is not dating and he is sorry he hurt me, very sorry.


So at least that was easier to hear than to hear he's dating again.


It opened an old wound to talk to him but I feel a bit better now that we've discussed the situation. It still means I have a ways to go before I'm comfortable with him dating anyone else. And I have to get there, eventually.


But today is not that day and that's ok.


And I told you about the Friday mtg. Yesterday I began looking & applying for part-time work (admin type stuff) in Boulder. I was really looking for a marketing firm or similar to work for - preferably upwards of 30 hours a week. I knew if I found that type of position, I could find clients and work to fill the rest of my week (promoting my classes for example).


Today I applied for a job, explained I was transitioning to part-time for the next few years. I gave them my resume and said if they were interested in a long-term PT person, I'd love to meet with them.


They contacted me a few hours later and we set up a meeting for Friday morning (when I will be calling into work, conveniently enough).


Later today, the person I'm meeting with emailed to say he had passed along my resume to his boss who was in need of a copywriter, an emergency project (aren't they all??). I said sign me up!


Well I didn't say that exactly but I told him I was definitely interested in talking with his boss.


So the boss called, we talked, there will be emails exchanged and a project will probably come into my lap.


Woo woo for me!!!!


I'm constantly amazed at how well things work out when you simply have faith. I prayed to my angels last night to help me stay open to opportunities and allow more money, more writing and more fun into my life. And look what happened? You may think it's a coincidence and that's your opinion.


I on the other hand believe I decided what I wanted, opened it up (believed and felt I deserved it) and let it happen however it naturally showed up on my doorstep.


And here it is. Already!


What a week. I feel the need to celebrate somehow!

Self-Love: It Isn't Just For Hippies

I had an interesting thought the other day...I was pondering my romantic relationships (and lack thereof). I came to the realization that the reason I haven't attracted my ideal man is because I'm not my ideal woman.


And then I came to an even clearer realization: I AM my ideal woman, I just didn't believe it or acknowledge my greatness before. I hadn't fully embraced me and my unending love for myself.


I'm not saying I'm fully there every moment of every day (I certainly have my "Oh heavens I hate my thighs" moments like 99.9999999% of all women) but I'm on that plane a helluva lot more than I have been in the past. It's a cool place to be..that place where you love yourself about all else. I kinda dig it, think I'm going to camp out here and stay awhile!


Other things going on...finished my copywriting apprenticeship program. You can check it here:


http://GoodToGreatCopy.blogspot.com


I'm getting ready to go to Mexico in a couple of weeks. WOOOOOOOO me!!! YAY! Can you tell I'm pretty darn excited for that? It's going to be a blast! I'll take pictures and share them with you. You'll wish you were me..or at least had been there with me! I like the latter better.


Hmmm...other stuff? Looking at houses, test driving BMWs (did you know if you own a corporation...as I do...that you can lease a company car and write off the entire monthly lease payment??? Good grief!! My BMW is free baby!!!) and generally loving life. And I owe it to the three pivotal experiences: my copywriting apprenticeship (I owe about 90% of my outlook to it), The Secret and Holosync.


Well there is a fourth thing I owe my success to... ME. I'm tougher, stronger, more talented and simply more amazing than I ever thought I was. Maybe that sounds like bragging to you and that's fine if it does. I just know I love me and I wake up every day ready to explore deeper and experience more of me.


For a woman who hasn't really known unconditional love before that's huge. I now unconditionally love myself.


Other stuff...training for a half-marathon, reading a lot of great books (Joe Vitale, Robert Bly, Bill Harris and at some point James Ray's Science of Success whenever the heck it comes in. It's on hold for me in 2 places and it's not here yet).


I'm also awaiting the arrival of my laptop. It's been 5.5 days and it's still not here. I'm about to pitch a damn fit because it should've been here 2 days ago.


Not to mention my ongoing issues with insurance. My agent skipped town, doesn't return my calls and hasn't paid me money he owes me. But I'm sure both situations will resolve themselves this week. I'm causing the insurance issues because I hate paying for the bloody crap. *sigh* I'm letting go of that thought and replacing it with a positive "insurance is helpful" thought. Soon I'll believe it.


Yep, that wraps it up...at least as much as I can go into now. I ran 4.5 miles tonight which is the most I've done in the last 2 months so I'm beat. I'd love to tell you all the things I'm discovering about quantum physics, the laws of the universe and the sisterhood of science & religion but it's a bit heady and I'm too damn tired to explain. :) If you're really interested just check out The Secret or Joe Vitale or James Ray (two of my favorite teachers).


Hugs and kisses...