Blach...

You know I always do my best to be positive and look for the good in all things. It's particularly hard for me from about November til the middle of February. I always want to be in a relationship and I rarely am. This year is the same despite dating several men.


The rotation is still on rotation but there's been a hiatus since about the middle of December. I saw one of the guys (we'll call him DR) early in the month and then his schedule has been hectic since. He has kid obligations that have kep him otherwise occupied.


You all know how I feel about dating someone with kids. NOT my preference, especially not teenagers. Anyway...


Since he was otherwise occupied, I of course continued seeing the other guys (what's the point in a rotation if you aren't rotating right?). Rotation Man #2 - we'll call him DB - was around a bit. I saw him 3x in about 1.5 weeks which might be a record for us.


DB and I have known each other for a few months (2 I think) and he's the strongest contender.


But I am not sure I'm even a contender in his book. He's had an incredibly stressful year so I'm still feeling out the situation. He's a tough one to read and there is a part of me that often wonders if I should just give up on it. He's a terrific guy but if he doesn't dig me that much then we should just move on so he can find someone he's crazy about. (And I can do the same!)


I haven't given up, I'm just watching and feelin' out the sitch with him. If we end up as just friends that's ok I suppose but there's a bit part of me that hopes for a lot more from him. That part of me thinks he & I have great potential...it's more of a feeling from my gut than anything else.


We'll see what happens and of course, I'll let you know!


One of the most important lessons I've learned from dating is to not take things too personally. You either dig someone or you don't. So if a guy doesn't dig me that's ok...another guy will.

Dating Rotation

Since I haven't gotten the results I've wanted in my love life, I decided to do something different. I made a decision to have a dating rotation.

Much like a pitching rotation, I have been talking to or dating approximately five men. They are all quite different and the experiences have been interesting.

There isn't one man in the main starting spot but there are 2 who have a significant leg up on the competition.

But the most interesting thing so far has been to simply observe them. Some of them know they are in a rotation, some do not. At least I haven't verbally told them they are one among many. However, even the ones who do not expressly know they are among a pack, seem to respond as though they are.

What I mean by that is they instinctively know they are in a competition. And it's fascinating.

Of the top 2, one has been around for a month or two now. We've had some fun, had a few dates and gotten to know each other. For awhile, he was the only man up for consideration.

But when it became apparent he wasn't going to move into the full-time slot all that soon, I upped the ante. I added more boys to the rotation to keep myself in circulation and take the pressure off the situation with him.

As I did that, he became more responsive and a bit more interested in me.

He called me, asked about me without any provocation from me. He was showing me his interest without me having to show interest first. And that was pretty big because up to this point, it's been coming from me.

And when I saw him the other night it was much like an actual date. We had dinner, drinks & talked for a few hours. We've spent time together in the past but had only one semi-real date.This was a lovely change of pace.

I have to admit he's very close to the #1 spot but the timing just doesn't seem right yet so he'll stay in the rotation with the top spot remaining up for grabs.

Many many people have recommended multiple dating to me in the past but I had shyed away from it (for any number of reasons). Now I'm beginning to see dating as fun and enjoyable - it doesn't have to go anywhere (like a relationship or marriage - although that would be cool if it did).

There is a belief that what you don't NEED can be yours. I've come to learn this is true in every area of life from love to money to fitness.

I put this to the test but telling myself I don't need a relationship but I desire one. And now I have several! :) :)

Pictures

Aren't I cute?! :) These are all from Cozumel courtesy of Lisa. She had over 600 photos!!! Wow. I had a great time looking through them..so glad someone got a shot of me in that red dress.

Drama drama drama

You know I despise drama and there's nothing more dramatic than a few of the girls on this trip. One of them is someone I have known for a few years and she's pretty nice. We get along well but aren't close. We simply hang out at different events and chat.

She brought a friend along with her, a young man from Detroit (we'll call him Detroit). I chatted with him throughout the day yesterday and thought he was very sweet and fun.


Well last night a group of us went out to the city to have dinner. Detroit and I went out by ourselves because we wanted Mexican food (when in Rome! Ahh, I'm in Cozumel if I didn't fill you in already). So it was just the two of us and we eventually ended up at this cute little place.

We had a lovely time with great drinks, conversation and food. A little group of mariachi men even played for us! I love those guys (yes it was like that scene in Jerry Maguire. Except we didn't talk about our Xs and our horrid past loves). It was wonderful, one of the best evenings I've had in quite awhile. And definitely the best night I've had with a man in months, I mean close to 6 months, maybe longer.

There was definitely flirtation and mutual interest. Eventually we made our way back to a dance club where others in our group were hanging out. We continued to talk and drink and flirt.

But apparently that wasn't ok by her. Her friend told me to not hook up with him and that was that. We continued to flirt for most of the night which I guess ticked her off. Naturally I had to find out through the grapevine, very much like junior high.

Nothing happened between Detroit and I because I'm not that kind of girl. Frankly I thought they were just friends because she had been talking about flirting with the concierge at our hotel. But girls can be territorial and downright mean at times.

Since I wanted everyone to get along and for things to be peaceful, I apologized to her and said I wouldn't flirt with him again. I take responsibility for my actions even though I strongly disagree with her reaction. Had she pulled me aside herself and asked me to stay away from him, we could've prevented any further problems. Instead we had to hash through things several times with several people in the ensuing 24 hours.

Haven't seen Detroit yet, he has been diving all day. We'll see if I'm even allowed to talk to him and be friendly. I certainly can't stop a man from being interested in me. :) Sometimes it's tough to be so damn cute!

Enjoy yourself wherever you are and I'll raise a glass in your honor tonight!

Someone's thinking of you in Cozumel...

Lara