Drama drama drama

You know I despise drama and there's nothing more dramatic than a few of the girls on this trip. One of them is someone I have known for a few years and she's pretty nice. We get along well but aren't close. We simply hang out at different events and chat.

She brought a friend along with her, a young man from Detroit (we'll call him Detroit). I chatted with him throughout the day yesterday and thought he was very sweet and fun.


Well last night a group of us went out to the city to have dinner. Detroit and I went out by ourselves because we wanted Mexican food (when in Rome! Ahh, I'm in Cozumel if I didn't fill you in already). So it was just the two of us and we eventually ended up at this cute little place.

We had a lovely time with great drinks, conversation and food. A little group of mariachi men even played for us! I love those guys (yes it was like that scene in Jerry Maguire. Except we didn't talk about our Xs and our horrid past loves). It was wonderful, one of the best evenings I've had in quite awhile. And definitely the best night I've had with a man in months, I mean close to 6 months, maybe longer.

There was definitely flirtation and mutual interest. Eventually we made our way back to a dance club where others in our group were hanging out. We continued to talk and drink and flirt.

But apparently that wasn't ok by her. Her friend told me to not hook up with him and that was that. We continued to flirt for most of the night which I guess ticked her off. Naturally I had to find out through the grapevine, very much like junior high.

Nothing happened between Detroit and I because I'm not that kind of girl. Frankly I thought they were just friends because she had been talking about flirting with the concierge at our hotel. But girls can be territorial and downright mean at times.

Since I wanted everyone to get along and for things to be peaceful, I apologized to her and said I wouldn't flirt with him again. I take responsibility for my actions even though I strongly disagree with her reaction. Had she pulled me aside herself and asked me to stay away from him, we could've prevented any further problems. Instead we had to hash through things several times with several people in the ensuing 24 hours.

Haven't seen Detroit yet, he has been diving all day. We'll see if I'm even allowed to talk to him and be friendly. I certainly can't stop a man from being interested in me. :) Sometimes it's tough to be so damn cute!

Enjoy yourself wherever you are and I'll raise a glass in your honor tonight!

Someone's thinking of you in Cozumel...

Lara

Self-Love: It Isn't Just For Hippies

I had an interesting thought the other day...I was pondering my romantic relationships (and lack thereof). I came to the realization that the reason I haven't attracted my ideal man is because I'm not my ideal woman.


And then I came to an even clearer realization: I AM my ideal woman, I just didn't believe it or acknowledge my greatness before. I hadn't fully embraced me and my unending love for myself.


I'm not saying I'm fully there every moment of every day (I certainly have my "Oh heavens I hate my thighs" moments like 99.9999999% of all women) but I'm on that plane a helluva lot more than I have been in the past. It's a cool place to be..that place where you love yourself about all else. I kinda dig it, think I'm going to camp out here and stay awhile!


Other things going on...finished my copywriting apprenticeship program. You can check it here:


http://GoodToGreatCopy.blogspot.com


I'm getting ready to go to Mexico in a couple of weeks. WOOOOOOOO me!!! YAY! Can you tell I'm pretty darn excited for that? It's going to be a blast! I'll take pictures and share them with you. You'll wish you were me..or at least had been there with me! I like the latter better.


Hmmm...other stuff? Looking at houses, test driving BMWs (did you know if you own a corporation...as I do...that you can lease a company car and write off the entire monthly lease payment??? Good grief!! My BMW is free baby!!!) and generally loving life. And I owe it to the three pivotal experiences: my copywriting apprenticeship (I owe about 90% of my outlook to it), The Secret and Holosync.


Well there is a fourth thing I owe my success to... ME. I'm tougher, stronger, more talented and simply more amazing than I ever thought I was. Maybe that sounds like bragging to you and that's fine if it does. I just know I love me and I wake up every day ready to explore deeper and experience more of me.


For a woman who hasn't really known unconditional love before that's huge. I now unconditionally love myself.


Other stuff...training for a half-marathon, reading a lot of great books (Joe Vitale, Robert Bly, Bill Harris and at some point James Ray's Science of Success whenever the heck it comes in. It's on hold for me in 2 places and it's not here yet).


I'm also awaiting the arrival of my laptop. It's been 5.5 days and it's still not here. I'm about to pitch a damn fit because it should've been here 2 days ago.


Not to mention my ongoing issues with insurance. My agent skipped town, doesn't return my calls and hasn't paid me money he owes me. But I'm sure both situations will resolve themselves this week. I'm causing the insurance issues because I hate paying for the bloody crap. *sigh* I'm letting go of that thought and replacing it with a positive "insurance is helpful" thought. Soon I'll believe it.


Yep, that wraps it up...at least as much as I can go into now. I ran 4.5 miles tonight which is the most I've done in the last 2 months so I'm beat. I'd love to tell you all the things I'm discovering about quantum physics, the laws of the universe and the sisterhood of science & religion but it's a bit heady and I'm too damn tired to explain. :) If you're really interested just check out The Secret or Joe Vitale or James Ray (two of my favorite teachers).


Hugs and kisses...