Merry Go Round

My heart has resembled a merry-go-round lately - up and down, up and down. Today was down but nothing I didn't anticipate. It's just a typical outcome in my typically abysmal love life.


And it's not the best time of year for me. I think I have had two Christmases with a SO. Yesterday on Christmas I realized that on one side of my family, I am the only grandchild over the age of 20 without a SO...and that's out of roughly a dozen. That was pretty disheartening and has dampened my holiday spirit a bit.


But I did go for a nice long run today and decided to register for a half-marathon in the spring and put a deposit down on an adventure trip this year. It's time to do things for me and to make my heart feel better.


Hope you all had a very merry Christmas.

The Cave

If you know what I'm talking about when I refer to this phrase, read on. If not, it probably won't matter to you.


Apparently this is a guy thing - they go into The Cave when trying to solve problems. I'm not sure if that's what is happening in my current situation or if it's something else (John Gray calls it Rubberbanding). This seems to have happened each time I have seen the current man. We hang out, have a great time and then I leave and he doesn't call for a few weeks. We might chat online but that's it. Then he calls, we set a new date, he calls more frequently as the visit approaches until we see each other again.


Of course this is just an observation and may not hold up this time. He simply may not call again and we may not set another date to visit. We never made any firm plans for another visit and we may have broken some boundaries on this one. I do wonder if we got too close and it made him uncomfortable..it's possible. Our history is a checkered one to say the least and I wonder if we can overcome past experiences. I hope so but I guess time will be the best indicator.


In the meantime, I am trying to date and keep my options open. Love is a complicated bitch.

Five by Five

I haven't posted one of these recently so I stole it from Christine. Thanks!


Five items in my freezer

- orange sherbert (my FAVE!)

- crappy Totino's pizzas..my roommates as I do not eat that crap

- veggie burgers

- fake sausage links

- a big ole turkey - again, my roommates


Five items in my bedroom closet (aka one of my TWO walk-ins!)

- sweatshirts

- shoes, shoes, shoes..a wall of shoes

- all of my clothes

- a bag of Xmas gifts

- my jewelry


Five items in the car

- used water bottles

- a couple of CDS in my CD holder

- a nice red sweater

- a yoga mat

- a peacoat


Five items in my purse

- two or three chapsticks (I am an addict)

- my wallet

- radio faceplate

- cell phone

- keys

Those were the cars I got to drive

Yes I was mildly pampered to say the least. The Audi makes my Rav4 feel like a piece of s**t. A 4 cyclinder engine is nothing compared to these gorgeous machines. Yeah I took the Audi up to 80 and if you know me, that's damn fast. I don't speed. And there truly is no place off limits with a Rover. I don't care what anyone says about Hummers (well I think it's really just their ad agency talking), nothing beats a Rover. Rover Time!

Did I Mention?

Loooonnnnngggg weekend

Well I am sitting in the Phoenix Sky Harbor Int'l Airport - 2nd time I've been here in less than 24 hrs. I missed my flight last night and was supposed to sit stand-by to get back to Denver. But lucky me, they found an empty seat and I'm going home on the 8am.


My weekend was spectacular to the say the least. Thursday night when I arrived we went to dinner with a few of G's friends at a local brewery. There was much boy conversation about off-roading, vehicle maintenance (of the off-roading variety) and other boy-type talk. It was a lot of fun. I love to see men in their natural conversational settings - it is great insight into their minds. They are so different than girls. This is what a girl conversation would be like: work, men, sex, work, men and more sex. Guys have similar discussions but they are still quite different in specifics (women will dissect every single word spoken on a date and men will not.


Friday G went to work and I slept in after we ran 6 miles. He ran them fast with a friend and it took me an hour and 10 min. (Very sad time I know!) I ran an errand for the off-roading, did a little bit of work and packed up for Sedona. We left Phoenix late (as is the usual style of G) and arrived at the luxurious Sedona Rouge about 9pm. We had dinner at a nearby brewery (beer was a big theme this weekend). I had one of the best Hefeweizens I've ever had in my entire life..and I am a lover of the Hefes to say the least.


Saturday we awoke early (NOT my favorite thing to do), grabbed some breakfast and equipped the Rover for the day's expedition. It was fun! I wasn't entirely sure I'd enjoy off-roading but I did. I did drive for a bit but mainly G drove. A few of his friends joined us in their Jeeps. We picnicked (is that a word??) in a scenic spot (where isn't there a scenic spot in Sedona??!). It was a gorgeous day to spend outside.


After the off-roading we went home to nap and get ready for a night out. We went to a local Mexican place that was quite good. Sedona hosts a Festival of Lights every year and after eating we grabbed some hot cocoa and set off to enjoy them. They were very nice although the themes were a bit odd! There didn't seem to be any rhyme or reason - every home that participated used whatever theme they wanted to so some overlapped or were very similar. Still, it was nice. We went to a quiet place further up a foothill after and enjoyed the stars (while we froze - it was chilly there!).


Sunday we slept in, grabbed some breakfast after G fixed some things on the Rover. It was shutting off for no reason - the entire car would shut off while you were driving. Not quite what you'd like your car to do so I was very appreciative that he solved that problem.


After breakfast we drove to Flagstaff - even higher in elevation than Sedona so it was quite cold and tree-lined. We drove down some old dirt roads to an underground cave and hiked back into it for an hour. It was very cool!


After a beer at a local pub (I told you beer was a theme), we drove a very long 2 hrs back to Phoenix, grabbed some take-out and watched a movie or two.


Monday was similar to Friday - G went to work, I slept in and did a bit of work while I waited for him to get home. We went for sushi and he showed me his offices. Sushi took longer than we anticipated and we got into a great discussion about why some people are more successful than others (we are two studies in contrast - G makes a considerable amount of money and I make very little). Before we knew it, it was 8:30 - the time my plane was boarding!


We flew to the airport in his gorgeous Audi but I didn't make it in time. So back home we went and got ready for an incredibly early day. I have been awake since 4am and am not pleased about it. He left for Vegas at 7 and I'm leaving for Denver at 8am.


No concrete plans to do it again - just tentative. We'd both like to see each other so hopefully it will happen after the holidays.


My plane is boarding so I am off!