Sacrifices

Well my dog days are over - back in Denver I am. Green eggs & ham...oops, sorry slipped off into Rhyme Release for a moment there. So I'm currently sitting outside of my apartment building on the cement patio between the two buildings. I get decent reception here but feel like an arse. I am effectively stealing and I feel like an azzhat for it. Oh well, someday I will pay for my very own wireless service. In the mean time, my azz cheeks are incredibly sore from sitting on cement. And no there aren't any community patio chairs out here. This is what I mean by sacrifices. (Let's also factor in that I am about 20 feet from the garbage dumpster - yep, sacrifices childrens, sacrifices).

And I've had to give up my organic food binges. I was an organic food junkie, I admit it. Organic produce is one thing but organic spaghettios? Yep, I ate 'em. One thing I won't be giving up is my organic non-meat products. Gotta have my veggie burgers from Morningstar. YUM.

So really I have very little to report, just wanted to post a new entry. My computer has been screwy for about 2 weeks now and I fear the worst: it is dying. She is about 5 years old so I could understand - that's about 115 in computer years. I've been backing up damn near everything I've saved on here - good thing I have a 215 MB thumb drive to save my ass. I knew it would come in handy. I would throw myself off of a cliff if I lost my 22,000 words of Maww book. I only need about 25,000 to 30,000 to finish her.

I spent all of last week in the beautiful mountains between Golden and Boulder. It was lovely albeit a bit lonely after the first 6 days. Dogs don't usually talk back so I was left to my own soliloquies. How in the bloody hell do you spell that word? I don't know but you get my meaning.

Other than that, not much in the way of news. Nothing on the job front really. I must not interview well - I've only had one callback from about 5 interviews I did. 20%. That's a crap batting average folks. I'm not impressed with myself.

There is a possibility I will be meeting with a woman who is a freelance writer this week. She makes good money at it and needs some help. She is looking to pay someone for some projects and also barter some resources in repayment for my writing services. Depending on when she returns from her mother's funeral, we are supposed to meet up. Well, I have to drive to Longmont but we're going to meet and see what kind of arrangements we can work out. Keep your fingers crossed - this could be the break I've been looking for. I want to write full-time from home if possible and she's doing it. She is also looking to mentor someone and pass along her knowledge. Send positive thoughts my way!!!

No love life news bulletins of course. I'm ok with that I guess. I have been talking to my X quite a bit. We never had trouble getting along, we had trouble fitting a relationship into his life. We'll see if any of that has changed. Regardless, we can at least be friends and that is a lot in my world.

So cheerio for now. Be well, travel safe & sleep tight. See you soon.
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End of the World

I was in church the other day (gasp!) and the pastor was speaking about the end of days. He wasn't talking about the upcoming end of the world days. He was saying the days are not coming, they are here. And as we live within them, we must learn how to get through them and carry ourselves forward...how to persevere and continue humanity in the face of a collapsing world and fallen morals.

It was an interesting way to view today's world events. There's a lot going on out there and he was trying to help us make sense of it. I don't know if his explanation cut it for me but there's nothing to be lost by living in that vein. And let's all say a prayer our fearless leader doesn't fuck things up any more than he already has. Maybe we should say a few prayers.

The general state of world affairs pretty much sums up my general state. I am dog-sitting in a little mountain home about 50 minutes outside of Denver. It's beautiful up here; the air is clear heavily scented with thick woodsy pine. And the view is breath-taking: the snow-capped peaks of the Continental Divide dot the skyline. It's incredible.

And I'm terribly lonely. I've had 5 or 6 job interviews within the span of roughly 2 weeks and I've had just one call-back. I don't feel like I'm getting closer to landing something and I'm running out of things to do with myself up here. My car is jacked up and shouldn't be driven if I can avoid it. So I'm stuck inside, online and watching TV. But I will be working on my book tomorrow and will hike with the dogs again so long as it stays reasonably cool up here.

And of course, I'll post again and update y'all. Thanks for bearing with me.

Update

So here's the latest in my world: still not working but have been interviewing consistently. I just filed for unemployment but picked up a dog-sitting gig for 10 days so I'll be able to pay rent next month without dipping into my savings. My goal is to avoid touching my savings for as long as possible. I truly do believe I will have an offer before the end of July.

I have interviewed with a non-profit (on the fence about this one), an acupuncture school (too far away and they aren't paying enough), a financial services company (interested in this) and a PR firm (very interested in them, afraid they are not interested in me as I have not heard from them this week). I have one more phone interview set up and then I am tapped out.

There are quite a few jobs out there so I'm not too terribly worried. My main concern is my 1.5 year curse. I can't seem to stay with a company for longer than 18 or 19 months and I hate that. It's not because I've wanted to leave, it's simply the way things have unfolded. I do my best to explain this in interviews but I don't know if I'm convincing. I am getting down about that.

In other news, I camped last weekend. My X was on the trip; it is the first time he & I have spoken since last January. It went well..probably too well since I now miss him. Not sure if the feeling is mutual but he did email me after the camping trip to say he was glad we had talked, he enjoyed it and he hoped to hear from me again soon. I sent him my phone number but haven't heard from him.

More on the dating tip: I was supposed to go out with a guy I met through myspace.com. We haven't officially met but you know what I mean. Well, he may not be a big believer in the punctuality since he said he'd call me on Tuesday and Tuesday has come and gone. Oh well. C'est la vie or whatever the hell it is that the Frenchies say.

Hmmph

It seems I am encountering some technical difficulties with my site. I have posted twice today and neither of the posts have gone up! I do apologize. Unfortunately I am exhausted today as my roommate decided to come home after midnight slam doors and then get in the bathroom with her boyfriend before 7am. Despite the injection of caffeine, I am dragging ass. Will write more soon - hopefully before the end of the week! A happy belated 4th of July to all of you. And an exceptionally HUGE happy birthday to my baby brother Tyler. Love you kiddles! Peace & prosperity, Lara

Well this sucks

I had an entertaining and lively post all typed out for y'all. And then Blogger lost it. And I am too frickin' irritated to retype the entire thing. You'll just have to deal for now. I'll write more another time. Peace & prosperity, Lara The Original MAWW

I'm a bum

Yep, I am without work and living la vida loca. Well, not really. I've only had one minor panic attack since D DAY (stands for dumped day, the day my job dumped me). Other than that, I am staring each day square in the eyes and moving forward. I've had one phone interview (they are a virtual-based office so I wasn't flying out to San Fran to meet the VP; we decided to chat instead) and another one lined up. It looks like I may be dog sitting for a week and will make enough to cover rent next month from that. I should also be receiving unemployment but that may take a few weeks to go through. In a sense, this has been very liberating but as most people will tell you, the first taste of liberation can be frightening. Venturing into the new can be disconcerting and uncomfortable. I know I will never be a 9 to 5er person, that's not the life for me. But until I can get my businesses off the ground and turning profits, I have to suck it up and life the cube life. It is a means to an end and that end is simply another beginning. You might wonder what businesses I'm taking about. Those of you who know me are aware of my freelance work - I'm a writer and editor. I have two clients right now and the work is not steady - lucrative but not steady. I also have a web site which is under construction and will began an endeavor with a network marketing company when I have regular income. And my namesake book, MAWW: True Confessions of a Mad Ass White Woman, will be published in the next two years. So I have a few fires in the oven so to speak. I know a few of them will take time - maybe as much as 3-4 yrs - before they are turning profits. But I know the NM and web site can produce some income in as little as 6 months. It's just a matter of time management and intelligent efforts on my part (along with some dollars!). So I thank you fair audience for indulging my daydreams and yearnings - thank you for listening to my rantings, ravings and shoutings. Without your ears and open minds, I'd just be a jabbering idiot. Of course I may already be a jabbering idiot but you are true peaches for listening to me. Peace & prosperity, Lara