You know I always do my best to be positive and look for the good in all things. It's particularly hard for me from about November til the middle of February. I always want to be in a relationship and I rarely am. This year is the same despite dating several men.
The rotation is still on rotation but there's been a hiatus since about the middle of December. I saw one of the guys (we'll call him DR) early in the month and then his schedule has been hectic since. He has kid obligations that have kep him otherwise occupied.
You all know how I feel about dating someone with kids. NOT my preference, especially not teenagers. Anyway...
Since he was otherwise occupied, I of course continued seeing the other guys (what's the point in a rotation if you aren't rotating right?). Rotation Man #2 - we'll call him DB - was around a bit. I saw him 3x in about 1.5 weeks which might be a record for us.
DB and I have known each other for a few months (2 I think) and he's the strongest contender.
But I am not sure I'm even a contender in his book. He's had an incredibly stressful year so I'm still feeling out the situation. He's a tough one to read and there is a part of me that often wonders if I should just give up on it. He's a terrific guy but if he doesn't dig me that much then we should just move on so he can find someone he's crazy about. (And I can do the same!)
I haven't given up, I'm just watching and feelin' out the sitch with him. If we end up as just friends that's ok I suppose but there's a bit part of me that hopes for a lot more from him. That part of me thinks he & I have great potential...it's more of a feeling from my gut than anything else.
We'll see what happens and of course, I'll let you know!
One of the most important lessons I've learned from dating is to not take things too personally. You either dig someone or you don't. So if a guy doesn't dig me that's ok...another guy will.
Friday, December 28, 2007
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
Happy holidays
With the holidays here again I've flown back to be with my family in WI. I love being home for Christmas and there's no other place I'd rather be!
So happy holidays to you and your loved ones. Enjoy the season and remember to be grateful for all you have. We can always want more and we always do but take a moment today and every day in 2008 to remember a few things you're thankful for.
Be grateful and be happy!
So happy holidays to you and your loved ones. Enjoy the season and remember to be grateful for all you have. We can always want more and we always do but take a moment today and every day in 2008 to remember a few things you're thankful for.
Be grateful and be happy!
Monday, December 10, 2007
My new home...
Yes I am going to move again I have decided. This time I'm leaving Denver behind. And I am embracing Boulder.
Although I didn't get the job offer in Boulder I decided it's time to go where my heart wants to be - Boulder. I want to be in a place where spirituality is the norm, biking & walking are standard modes of transportation and not the bus or Hummer SUVs, and where alternative practices are welcomed with open arms.
That place is Boulder and that place is me.
I think I knew it the first time I visited the city and my heart has wanted to move there for the last 3 years.
Natch my brain told me that was silly since I had just moved to Denver so I ignored my longings and made due in Denver. I found metaphysical shops to suit my needs with wonderfully kind & creative owners; I found local churchs I enjoyed visiting and I found some like-minded people to share my time with.
But not enough. I haven't been immersed in groups of people who embrace progressive self-development and actualization. I have frequently been at the head of the pack among people I know and I want to be surrounded with people who are light years ahead of me. People who can and will teach me to have more compassion, more love, more honesty with myself and with others.
I want to continue my growth and the place to do it is in Boulder.
Wish me luck!
Although I didn't get the job offer in Boulder I decided it's time to go where my heart wants to be - Boulder. I want to be in a place where spirituality is the norm, biking & walking are standard modes of transportation and not the bus or Hummer SUVs, and where alternative practices are welcomed with open arms.
That place is Boulder and that place is me.
I think I knew it the first time I visited the city and my heart has wanted to move there for the last 3 years.
Natch my brain told me that was silly since I had just moved to Denver so I ignored my longings and made due in Denver. I found metaphysical shops to suit my needs with wonderfully kind & creative owners; I found local churchs I enjoyed visiting and I found some like-minded people to share my time with.
But not enough. I haven't been immersed in groups of people who embrace progressive self-development and actualization. I have frequently been at the head of the pack among people I know and I want to be surrounded with people who are light years ahead of me. People who can and will teach me to have more compassion, more love, more honesty with myself and with others.
I want to continue my growth and the place to do it is in Boulder.
Wish me luck!
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
Dating Rotation
Since I haven't gotten the results I've wanted in my love life, I decided to do something different. I made a decision to have a dating rotation.
Much like a pitching rotation, I have been talking to or dating approximately five men. They are all quite different and the experiences have been interesting.
There isn't one man in the main starting spot but there are 2 who have a significant leg up on the competition.
But the most interesting thing so far has been to simply observe them. Some of them know they are in a rotation, some do not. At least I haven't verbally told them they are one among many. However, even the ones who do not expressly know they are among a pack, seem to respond as though they are.
What I mean by that is they instinctively know they are in a competition. And it's fascinating.
Of the top 2, one has been around for a month or two now. We've had some fun, had a few dates and gotten to know each other. For awhile, he was the only man up for consideration.
But when it became apparent he wasn't going to move into the full-time slot all that soon, I upped the ante. I added more boys to the rotation to keep myself in circulation and take the pressure off the situation with him.
As I did that, he became more responsive and a bit more interested in me.
He called me, asked about me without any provocation from me. He was showing me his interest without me having to show interest first. And that was pretty big because up to this point, it's been coming from me.
And when I saw him the other night it was much like an actual date. We had dinner, drinks & talked for a few hours. We've spent time together in the past but had only one semi-real date.This was a lovely change of pace.
I have to admit he's very close to the #1 spot but the timing just doesn't seem right yet so he'll stay in the rotation with the top spot remaining up for grabs.
Many many people have recommended multiple dating to me in the past but I had shyed away from it (for any number of reasons). Now I'm beginning to see dating as fun and enjoyable - it doesn't have to go anywhere (like a relationship or marriage - although that would be cool if it did).
There is a belief that what you don't NEED can be yours. I've come to learn this is true in every area of life from love to money to fitness.
I put this to the test but telling myself I don't need a relationship but I desire one. And now I have several! :) :)
Much like a pitching rotation, I have been talking to or dating approximately five men. They are all quite different and the experiences have been interesting.
There isn't one man in the main starting spot but there are 2 who have a significant leg up on the competition.
But the most interesting thing so far has been to simply observe them. Some of them know they are in a rotation, some do not. At least I haven't verbally told them they are one among many. However, even the ones who do not expressly know they are among a pack, seem to respond as though they are.
What I mean by that is they instinctively know they are in a competition. And it's fascinating.
Of the top 2, one has been around for a month or two now. We've had some fun, had a few dates and gotten to know each other. For awhile, he was the only man up for consideration.
But when it became apparent he wasn't going to move into the full-time slot all that soon, I upped the ante. I added more boys to the rotation to keep myself in circulation and take the pressure off the situation with him.
As I did that, he became more responsive and a bit more interested in me.
He called me, asked about me without any provocation from me. He was showing me his interest without me having to show interest first. And that was pretty big because up to this point, it's been coming from me.
And when I saw him the other night it was much like an actual date. We had dinner, drinks & talked for a few hours. We've spent time together in the past but had only one semi-real date.This was a lovely change of pace.
I have to admit he's very close to the #1 spot but the timing just doesn't seem right yet so he'll stay in the rotation with the top spot remaining up for grabs.
Many many people have recommended multiple dating to me in the past but I had shyed away from it (for any number of reasons). Now I'm beginning to see dating as fun and enjoyable - it doesn't have to go anywhere (like a relationship or marriage - although that would be cool if it did).
There is a belief that what you don't NEED can be yours. I've come to learn this is true in every area of life from love to money to fitness.
I put this to the test but telling myself I don't need a relationship but I desire one. And now I have several! :) :)
Monday, December 03, 2007
My Wish List for 2008
I was just reading an article by Joe Vitale (find him here at www.mrfire.com). It was his list of things he wants in 2007.
I'm a big fan of Joe and after handwriting the article (a copywriting exercise I like to do several times a week/daily), I decided I should write my own wish list for 2008.
So here goes.
These are in no particular order and would add to the end of each: This or something better.
1.) More loving, supportive and respectful relationships (in particular, a committed romantic one). I love my friends and my family and in 2008, I'd love to have more! I'd love to be a part of a local mastermind group who I can meet with at least once a month. And I'd love to have a magical romantic boyfriend. :)
2.) A more creative, writing-based job that pays double my current income. There is one job I have interviewed for and I am hoping for this one in particular. If not, something even better!!
3.) To buy my dream home. It has French doors, a patio, a fireplace, 3 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms. And a doggie door for my new pooch (who is also on my wish list for '08). I'd love for this house to be within sight of the Flatirons. This one excites and scares me a bit - a big investment on my part.
4.) A new doggie!!! I want an older, well-trained and obedient small or medium-sized dog (under 50 lbs). I'm excited for this one!!
5.) I want to visit western Europe - preferably England or Ireland for 2-4 weeks in 2008. I haven't been yet and it's about time!! It'd be even better if the entire vacation time was PTO from that kick ass new creative-driven writing job. :)
6.) Hang out at the Ouray Ice Festival in '08. Haven't been yet, heard it's wicked good fun and good folks.
7.) To own all of Joe Vitale's books and audio programs. If you want to help me accomplish this wish, head over to Amazon.com and look under Joe Vitale.
8.) I'd love to go to James Ray's Quantum Leap weekend in November of 08. You can find him on his web site, www.JamesRay.com.
9.) Wouldn't it be cool to get a new car for free? I'd dig it!! Why not! Here are a few I'd luuuuuvvvvvv: http://www.klubvmax.pl/img/auto2/1967CorvetteStingray_0.jpg
http://www.channel4.com/4car/media/100-greatest/03-large/88-porsche-boxster.jpg
10.) And finally I wish to live each and every moment in a state of peace, happiness, grace, joy and love. It all begins with me and I know this is possible.
I'm a big fan of Joe and after handwriting the article (a copywriting exercise I like to do several times a week/daily), I decided I should write my own wish list for 2008.
So here goes.
These are in no particular order and would add to the end of each: This or something better.
1.) More loving, supportive and respectful relationships (in particular, a committed romantic one). I love my friends and my family and in 2008, I'd love to have more! I'd love to be a part of a local mastermind group who I can meet with at least once a month. And I'd love to have a magical romantic boyfriend. :)
2.) A more creative, writing-based job that pays double my current income. There is one job I have interviewed for and I am hoping for this one in particular. If not, something even better!!
3.) To buy my dream home. It has French doors, a patio, a fireplace, 3 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms. And a doggie door for my new pooch (who is also on my wish list for '08). I'd love for this house to be within sight of the Flatirons. This one excites and scares me a bit - a big investment on my part.
4.) A new doggie!!! I want an older, well-trained and obedient small or medium-sized dog (under 50 lbs). I'm excited for this one!!
5.) I want to visit western Europe - preferably England or Ireland for 2-4 weeks in 2008. I haven't been yet and it's about time!! It'd be even better if the entire vacation time was PTO from that kick ass new creative-driven writing job. :)
6.) Hang out at the Ouray Ice Festival in '08. Haven't been yet, heard it's wicked good fun and good folks.
7.) To own all of Joe Vitale's books and audio programs. If you want to help me accomplish this wish, head over to Amazon.com and look under Joe Vitale.
8.) I'd love to go to James Ray's Quantum Leap weekend in November of 08. You can find him on his web site, www.JamesRay.com.
9.) Wouldn't it be cool to get a new car for free? I'd dig it!! Why not! Here are a few I'd luuuuuvvvvvv: http://www.klubvmax.pl/img/auto2/1967CorvetteStingray_0.jpg
http://www.channel4.com/4car/media/100-greatest/03-large/88-porsche-boxster.jpg
10.) And finally I wish to live each and every moment in a state of peace, happiness, grace, joy and love. It all begins with me and I know this is possible.
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